All of us have dreams. Probably all kids once imagined theirselves as somebody that they wanted to be. I remember when I was 5, i used to wait for 6 pm so I could be able to watch my favorite news program and see my favorite news anchor, Ms. Kara David, who by that time, was doing a documentary of the most recommended tourist attractions in the Philippines. I was really impressed by her job because I knew she was getting paid to travel and so I told my self that there’s nothing that I wanted when I grow up but to be just like her. I told my sisters about it and they gave my some ideas on how to be a great journalist: First, i have to be beautiful. I will be featured on television so being presentable all the time is a total must. Second, I need to posses excellent communication skill. I was really eager to make my dreams come true so I started training my self to pass the requirements. I didn’t mind spending hours in front of a mirror just to get my hair fixed. I always wanted to look gorgeous (yes, that’s how I was even when I was just 5). I kept myself focused on all my speech classes to ensure that I deliver every word perfectly. I did all these things as part of my preparation of becoming a journalist. Unexpectedly, challenges came my way, and it totally changed everything.
Different colleges and universities from all over the country were already accepting applicants for college. First dilemma, where to enroll? I promised I won’t be pursuing my college on the same school because I wanted to experience new environment and meet new people. But anyway, I can take an examination from different schools and just make a decision later after getting the result. That was what I did. When I was about to take the exam, there came my second dilemma, what course will I take? Journalism was the first that came to mind. Unfortunately, my family discouraged me to take the course due to limited opportunities. I thought of taking up Political Science instead so I can proceed to Law. But then again, I was discouraged because of the same reason. I might have a hard time finding a job that suits this course (unless I pursue Law after college and pass the bar exam). It was almost graduation week (March 2001) but I haven’t made up my mind yet. Thank God my sister introduced me to Psychology and I was enlightened.
My decision of taking up BS Psychology at University of San Agustin, Iloilo City was due to the following: First, it will help me know and understand why a person acts the way he does. Second, Psychology is a pre-law course so I can still pursue law if I wish to. It’s also a pre-med course so I still have another option in case I change my mind. Third, practical reason. There is a greater opportunity of finding a stable job that will soon give me the chance to travel (though it will be at my own expense). And fourth, USA so I could do what my parents want. I wanted a different school, far from where I grew up, and my parents wanted a place that they really know.
I enjoyed Psychology. I realized a lot of things and learned to understand people more. But honestly, I finished my 4-year course without any plan for my future. I wanted to work of course but as to where and what career will I be pursuing? No idea at all.
I spent few months traveling and hanging out with friends. I love going out. I love spending the day and night with people who are really fun to be with. I love to see and discover new things. But these cannot always be my priority. I need to work. I need to earn my own money. I want to prove my parents that their hard-works are all worth it.
It was January 2006 when I submitted my application for a staff position in one of the Companies in Subic. The opening was for purchasing staff but I guess it was really destiny that brought me to HR. According to them, they all got curious with my picture and wanted to know if I look the same in person. They checked my profile and found out that I was a Psychology graduate. I was then offered a position in HR. Luckily, I was able to pass the examination and series of interviews. Big thanks to my graduation picture because it helped me land a job (pun). Kidding aside, I went through a tough process of hiring. They tested my patience so hard that I almost gave up, but of course I didn’t because I really wanted to prove them that I was qualified for the job.
I handled Employee Behavior and Relations. It was challenging because I was tasked to do works that were related to disciplinary action, from giving warning to suspension and even termination. I worked for the Company for 2.5 yrs and because I wanted to explore more about HR, I decided to look for another job that will allow me to work as a generalist. There came another opportunity. It was August 2008 when I started working as HR Supervisor in an IT Company, located in Makati. I handled all facets of HR, from hiring to firing, and all other administrative jobs. I’m glad that I am still connected with the Company, as an HR Manager.
My career as HR practitioner gave me so much idea on how to deal with people. However, being in this profession required me to be more cautious with my actions. HR people are more often expected by many to be prim and proper, doing the right thing all the time. Well it’s not the typical me, but because I give so much importance to my work, I decided to be how people expect me to be. At first it was fun but later on I realized that I am missing a lot of things. I came to a point where I asked my self “Am I really happy?”, “Is this really how I want my life to be?”, “Is this the career that I really want to pursue?”. I have been in this profession for so many years now and I already attained a managerial position, but I still have to admit, yes, there were times where I thought of shifting into a more exciting career.
The confusion gave me sleepless nights but I have to do something about it. I tried analyzing the situation until I realized how much I love my job. I based my behavior on people’s expectations but I know it was my own choice. How I live my life now is my choice as well, and how I’ll be dealing with it still depend on me.
Now, I have made up my mind. I will continue to work as HR practitioner and will never be hesitant to show people the other side of me. Never mind the criticisms. It will always be there. I’ll just do what I want to do and people will get used to it. Important thing is, I am happy with my life and I am not hurting anybody for being me.